Self-Diagnosis

April 16, 2014 | Blog

I have discovered I am OCD. I never thought that would be the case.  I keep a very cluttered room, I’m usually okay if I don’t get awesome grades, and overall I’m a pretty easy going kid.

It all started when I had my first photoshoot. I didn’t get a haircut beforehand, I got a parking ticket that morning, and I forgot my guitar. Everything was going wrong. When I got to the “studio”, it was a friend of  the photographers apartment that he hadn’t moved into yet.  Not the high tech studio I had in mind. I left the shoot knowing it was horrible, and the photographer seemed bored taking the shots too.  I got them back, and I tried to pick the best ones I liked, and we started making the album art. We were about halfway through when I realized I couldn’t have these represent me.  I understand that as an artist you have to show a glamorized version of yourself, but these weren’t me at all and not in a good way.

So I decided another photoshoot was needed. I met with Lucia Holms, and we did an awesome photoshoot. It was so much fun, and the shots that we got are so original and incredible I can’t wait to show you guys. No, literally, I’m going to show you guys edited draft shots. I may not use them, but they will give you an idea of the shoot and what the finals will look like. Please DO NOT post these, they aren’t released yet but I want you guys to get psyched!

As far as the EP goes, I have been a pain in the ass.  I constantly, obsessively listen to it, looking for the slightest mistakes, level issues and distortion.  I’ve been stressing out so much that between obsessing and midterms last week I’ve literally made myself sick. But, it’s paying off. The EP, while taking much longer than we anticipated to finish (and risking to annoy countless people along the way), is sounding better and better. It is currently getting mastered at “The Lodge”, and once that is finished we will be releasing as soon as we get the website and packaging ready! I’m incredibly impressed with my team, their resiliency and support for my newfound OCD. They have made everything so easy for me, and kept me somewhat sane throughout all of this.

As I get closer to finishing the EP, I’m starting to come back down to earth and realize what I’ve done.  This project has consumed me, in the best way possible, so much that I have just been getting everything done without stepping back to look at it all. A friend of mine said to me “You must be so proud of everything you accomplished this year!”, and without thinking I responded “I can’t even think about it yet.”  This is something I’m going to need to work on going forward. I used to get mad at my Dad as a kid for bringing his work home, but I’m pretty sure that I’m 1000% worse than he ever was. Not only that, but I haven’t been able to turn it off.  It’s amazing that I love doing this so much, I don’t think I have ever had so much fun working on anything else, but I’m realizing that I do need to be able to keep it in perspective, just like any other job, and appreciate where I am instead of constantly trying to get to the next checkpoint.

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